I just don't want to ruin your plan

Friday
18/09/09

Sudden Emo attacked yesterday
after chatting with her through msn
read her msn PM just make me emo
I don't get it why
before that I was like active, talkative, powerful
but then
out of sudden battery low plus HEAVY RAIN outside


The night before, Thursday, she was like unhappy
that all her plans just gone
planned will be busy on Thursday - Saturday
Her dear- Her bestie
Just can't make it and I was OT-ing that night
She was like stuck at home
Anyway, sad things no need to recall back
I asked her to sleep early since tmr still need to jog


Came back on Friday
means yesterday night
after she attended her family reunion
she thought of going somewhere else
asked me to plan
I'm not a good planner
everything i planned ain't a good place she wanted
that's what I feel
correct me if I'm wrong
10.30pm
just can't get through her phone
then she picked up
sounds busy sounds noisy over there
she told me she met her friends at Station One
and I was like OK
you got your last minute plan
should be OK
then she sms-ed me ask me whether wanna go The Curve
because her dear over there
asked me wanna join
I knew it would be late going there by 11pm ++
end up will came back roughly 4am
was a drinking session

I was still coughing that time
I just don't want to ruin her plan
asked her to go herself without me
Sometimes is hard to define what she's thinking
She canceled her dear's plan
and planned to go somewhere else

OK..fetched her around 11.30pm
I know
I'm still EMO-ing that time
I just don't know why
I didn't really talk in the car
sorry about that
I drove around Klang
Bukit Tinggi see whether got any shops still open
I knew she don't like the place that near to house
Pass by Biz Cafe
then was already last call
so no point we sat there just for awhile
then she said just Station One (different area)
I was stunt for a second
won't you just came back from there with your friend?

EVEN SAME "PLACE"
BUT DIFFERENT PEOPLE
SO IS DIFFERENT

another few seconds stunt
Ok then
have a drink at Station One
while I was looking at the menu
I saw 2 girls spotting at me quite a long time
they sat far end away from me
when I look closer
OMG
they are my ages friends from Buddhist Association
been ages we didn't meet up
never thought of they will saw us here
I just told her that someone saw us
they walked to my place and say Hi
sorry to them that I didn't spend time with them
they really changed a lot
I almost can't recognize them if I didn't add one of them

Same thing
Station One
we teased each other
we emo-ed each other
we chatted
we tired
2am again
sent her home again
but she doesn't seem like wanted to go home
sometimes i really no idea what you want
you look tired but you said you're not
you almost fall asleep in the car
so I drove round and round over the place
small road big road
drive very slowly to let the time past
2.30am reached home
time to say byebye

Phone her up after she asked-->Am I really going to sleep now
OMG...I was lagi stunt
actually u're tired or not tired?
Nvm...I will observed myself but is better u just let me know
Ok..I complained something to her
I just feel quite harsh to do that to her
but she said she could take it
It just my way of thinking