Sorry

07/11/09
Saturday hang out time

yesterday was the worst and the best
I'm sorry to you too that I lied to you
I'm happy that we get it back
Hugz

p/s: Chanel perfume smell still with me 24/7

weirdest ever...

In the office (MSN)...

Engeland says:
different how?
engeland says:
getting cooler and cooler? ha! lol

Henry says:
oh...
Henry says:
cooler..hmmm...
Henry says:
i don't know
Henry says:
just different

Engeland says:
oh no. it's bad huh

Henry says:
bad ?
Henry says:
everyone will change what

Engeland says:
change how?! JUST
Engeland says:
TELL
Engeland says:
describe

Henry says:
ish...
Henry says:
maybe i changed ok
Henry says:
sounds better ?

Engeland says:
...

Henry says:

Engeland says:
lol.
Engeland says:
you're hiding something
Engeland says:
JUST!
Engeland says:
lol
Engeland says:
GAH

Henry says:
ish
Henry says:
hide what'

Engeland says:
(11:53 AM) Henry:
*u seems different days by days

hiding this...
Engeland says:
come on it kills me to not know what's going on

Henry says:
u think too much
Henry says:
i think i'm the one who change

Engeland says:
lol
Engeland says:
and why is that?

Henry says:
no idea
Henry says:
u didn't realise i was like....NTG
Henry says:
not that active

Engeland says:
NTG? nothng?

Henry says:
NTG = nothing

Engeland says:
oh...
Engeland says:
yes yes. why is that?

Henry says:
that's y i say i change not u
Henry says:
that's all la
Henry says:
if i know...then long time i tell u what

Engeland says:
JUST TELL ME!
Engeland says:
eh eh watch my back. if "(____)" comes nudge me
Engeland says:
anyway ... back to topic

Henry says:
she not here at all
Henry says:
she even see me playing msn

Engeland says:
lol

Henry says:
ho ho

Engeland says:
kk focus! back to topic

Henry says:
back to topic..yeah
Henry says:
what to eat later

Engeland says:
change is fuelled by 2 things. ADD and LOSS
Engeland says:
which is your fuel

Henry says:
no add no loss
Henry says:
just back to previous me
Henry says:
previous me not that active

Engeland says:
!!

Henry says:
don't u see it...

Engeland says:
no add no loss = no change

Henry says:
ok...no change
Henry says:
lol
Henry says:
hey..

Engeland says:
ui!

Henry says:
what to eat later

Engeland says:
not fair... you cant pull back you chicken
engeland says:
lol

Henry says:
shit u
Henry says:
i can go back to the previous me what
Henry says:
u might can't

Engeland says:
JUST TELL ME GAH! i NEED TO KNOW. it's my curse

Henry says:
but i can
Henry says:
what...somehow i was like too active
Henry says:
then i want to slow it down
Henry says:
once i slow it down
Henry says:
everything will just change
Henry says:
then moody day will approach
Henry says:
less activeness
Henry says:
less talking
Henry says:
just SPEECHLESS
Henry says:
just POINTLESS
Henry says:
don;t know what should say
Henry says:
concentration can't hold long
Henry says:
anger pop up fast
Henry says:
THAT'S ALL
Henry says:
wakkaak
Henry says:
think i should copy down what i say to u now...to my blog

Engeland says:
HWOA
Engeland says:
tiba-tiba all came out
Engeland says:
that's insane... you can copy paste our convo
Engeland says:
and blog it

Henry says:
nah...think long time lo....
Henry says:
yeah
Henry says:
will highlight the word (CHICKEN)
Henry says:
lol

Engeland says:
lol

*****crap starts*****
Henry says:
u doing 3d over there?
Henry says:
DO NOT CC WHAT WE CHAT JUST NOW
engeland says:
cc to who? abu?
engeland says:
lol
engeland says:
gay 3d...yeap
Henry says:
how i know
Henry says:
normally u like to cc
engeland says:
im so tired of all this 3d
Henry says:
lol
Henry says:
i know...
engeland says:
no i dont!
Henry says:
go help them make model
Henry says:
since got new MODEL
Henry says:
eco resort
Henry says:
3 model somemore
engeland says:
dam
engeland says:
damn
Henry says:
haha
Henry says:
u not doing also
Henry says:
damn for what
engeland says:
damn that's alot
engeland says:
i think i'm gonna step in anyhow.
engeland says:
that patrick and vivian is to be done by friday
Henry says:
shit
engeland says:
i dont think he can finish even if he tried. i'll be FORCED to step in...hhhh gay
engeland says:
mercedes slw.
engeland says:
shh
Henry says:
hmm...
Henry says:
left 2days
Henry says:
how to finish
Henry says:
they're NUTS
engeland says:
i know right
Henry says:
hah
*****crap ends*****

Engeland says:
back to what you were saying
Engeland says:
STILL. change is fuelled by add and loss
Engeland says:
everything else comes after that... try figure out, what's the add and loss! leme know

Henry says:
shit u
Henry says:
stop thinking bout me
Henry says:
think bout food now

Engeland says:
LOL
Engeland says:
LOL

Henry says:
euii....GAY

Engeland says:
okay okay! sorry
Engeland says:
fucks. OKAY!

Henry says:
nah....i like it
Henry says:
GAH
Henry says:
aiks....JUST just just JUST
Henry says:
AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH

Engeland says:
EW wtf

Henry says:
u didn't sleep well last night ?

Engeland says:
i look tired?!

Henry says:
ur eyes can tell...haha

Engeland says:
lol. shit. i got eyebags?

Henry says:
ur hair also can tell

Engeland says:
shit...

speechless after posting this
bet no one will continue reading my blog after all
LOL

p/s: Engeland is a guy

Sorry that I'm not understanding enough
Sorry that not thinking at your side
Sorry that I changed my mood fast

You may think I'm quite ridiculous
I just can't control my heart

TO BE HONEST
I DO REALLY CARE ABOUT YOU
do you know that?

Tuesday

CAN I JUST SAID: I CAN WAIT TO SEE YOU ?


p/s: even just met on SATURDAY

Voice ouT

It's time for me to voice out
It's time for me to say something that I normally
I keep in my mind/heart
anywhere I want

Just want to make a statement here
Most of the time..not a suitable word
so called EVERY TIME
I was like rejecting people not going somewhere with them
or telling them I need to get home
or I can't make it

I KNOW EVERY TIME I CAN MAKE IT
I KNOW EVERY TIME I HAVE TO GO HOME
I KNOW MY HOUSE PREPARE MY DINNER
I KNOW I HAVING TIME WITH FAMILY

I KNOW
I KNOW
I KNOW

DO YOU KNOW WHAT AM I THINKING?

DO U THINK THAT I DON'T WANT TO GO HAVE DINNER WITH U GUYS?
DO U THINK I DON'T LIKE OUTING?

BET YOU WON'T KNOW
NOT I DON'T WANT

OK!!!
I ADMIT I PREFER STAYING AT HOME
DOESN'T MEAN I DON'T LIKE TO HANG OUT
IT JUST MY FAMILY HERE
THEY WANT ME TO GO HOME
JUST
just
just
just

NEVERMIND
JUST WANT TO VOICE OUT

cheers!

endless power

Friday
23/10/09

Working as usual
9.30am-6.30pm
was like hanging hanging type every Friday
last day working on weekdays
happy mood turned on
since my first day working
I'm looking forward for the weekends
anyway, that day I was like doing new bungalow drawings
till 5pm
my energy was like getting lower and lower
listen to some club hitz to motivate myself
then 6pm started to spam my msn to Carine
STATED 30MINUTES TO GO
then was like countdown
told Nigel as well
asked him and Carine to join me
SHOUT OUT LOUD
on 6.30pm sharp
LOL
something not right to me
just can't wait to be 6.30pm
maybe I was happy bout Saturday is coming
planned to somewhere on Saturday
forget about the Saturday first
I know it will be a great day
so no worried about it
so Friday
I didn't go home straight after 6.30pm
was sitting there
colleagues were planning to have dinner
no more drinking sessions
it's totally killing after drinking so much before that
maybe not me but them
so we drove to burger king to have our dinner
then chit chat over there
who knows sudden plan pop up
Nigel and Carine wanted to go somewhere
like a place to drink
at least the night not end so soon
ok, just drink
and they said THE LIBRARY
I was like...WHAT THE
sent Emin back to office
then Carine went back changed
Nigel and I waited in the office
BU = New Colleague
was joining too...so waited him as well
after that I told them I might leaving early
so drove 2 cars there
I fetched Carine to THE LIBRARY
ok...a good place to see from outside
not a good place to drink I guess
kind of expansive plus HOT

Because of HoeGardens fault
let them have the high-ness of drinking and moving their body
they wanted to go Sanctuary
just normal get LONG ISLAND sharing
so won't be expansive and sharing a jug with 4 of us
so should be OK if just that we drink
ok...let's go
Dance Drink
Drink Dance
as usual
but that night

just just just just just just just just just just just just
just just just just just just just just just just just
just just just just just just just just just just
just just just just just just just just just
just just just just just just just just
just just just just just just just
just just just just just just
just just just just just
just just just just
just just just
just just
just

DIFFERENT

forget it
as long everyone have to a good good night
but I'm so sorry about I abandoned her
she wanted to discuss with me about tmr plan
but I didn't
I was like thinking shit myself up
it's was like 5.30am
I reached home prepared myself to sleep
6am fall asleep


SUNDAY
24/10/09
slept at 6am
bet u won't expect I will wake up and continue my plan
which I planned to go out with her to Batu Caves
I woke up at 8.45am
as usual I will have breakfast with my family
just don't know what I could wake up at that time
I had my tuna for breakfast
and waiting the time to come to sms her
just don't want to wake her up so early
waited till almost 10.30am
I was watching TV didn't hear my phone's msg vibrate
found out there 3 msg that she sent to me
said plan canceled
I WAS LIKE SHIT MYSELF
I RUINED AGAIN
I really speechless
called her up spoke 2hrs plus
almost 1pm
SUDDEN PLAN
LAST MINUTE
she didn't want to waste the Saturday
stay at home?
no way

WE PLAN TO
GENTING
don't need to think anymore
just go
Saturday is our trip
just want to utilize our Saturday
I was thinking last night 3hrs sleep
and can I hold my tired-ness till late night
YES, I DO
no tired in my mind
no sleepy in my mind
no wondering in my mind
JUST DO IT

journey from
2.45pm
get McD for our lunch in the car
4.15pm
reached Genting
not very cold
Why Genting?
because we are going to ROCK CLIMBING
she wanted to climb
I was like shit...worried...can I?
wakaka
I know I'm lousy
but who cares
I climbed too
just didn't mange to get to the top
but better than others I guess when we observed people climbing
yeah, we climbed better than others
stretched our whole body
we went up Genting to exercise
LOL
we played
we ate
we drank
we walked
we observed
we chatted

For me
UNBELIEVABLE
just I didn't know I will bring her up
which planned last minute
normally I won't do this kind of planning

8pm
went home
slowly drive
somehow just tired and some emotional chit chat
normally we think a lot
maybe not think
but
ASSUMPTION
simply assume simply think
still we share things out

10pm
reached KFC
had our dinner

11pm
sent her home
but after KFC, I was like not really talk to her
I kind of tired plus I
haiz...
okok

just
just just
just just just
just just just just
just just just just just

NOTHING
not angry u ok
I'm happy spending the time with u
but it ended so fast
feel not enough

12am
Slept after washed up myself
till next morning
way too tired

our SUNDAY

18/10/09
Sunday
as planned on Saturday
KLCC

12.30pm
she picked me up from my house
as usual my parents drove my car out
brought my SG relatives to Genting

1.30pm
arrived KLCC
started to shop around every shops
branded or not very branded
just get in and have a look even not buying
ask around the price
feel all the textures
feel the elegant materials they choose to use
everything 4 digits
LOL

In and Out
Out and In
every part of KLCC
Up and Down
Down and Up
every where of KLCC

3pm
craving for food
thinking thinking what to eat
in the end heading into Sakae Sushi
simply just want to eat
after having lunch
continue our journey again
In and Out
Out and In
every part of KLCC
Up and Down
Down and Up
every where of KLCC
till 6pm

started to buy something
started to choose which to buy
started to spend
but kinda hard when u don't even know

which one to buy first
which one to get first
which one to use first

when to get her high heels
but when she tried
not really suits her
she was like so disappointed
after all waiting for so long make up her mind to get the heels
who knows not suits
brought her to other shops to try
she don't want
spin spin around
upset face hanging on her face
then out of sudden
we planned to separate for 30minutes
she get her stuff and I get mine
ends up both of us can't make up our own decision
she called me up to choose for her
I was running up and down
can't really remember the shoes department
she told me was upstairs
but it wasn't
end up, I found her sitting down trying at the same floor
where I looking my stuff
phew...u guys must be thinking why don't I just call her
easier for me
but I just can't get through her number

Finally she got her heels
and picked up some clothes as well
but still she like kinda half happy half sad
not really shop at all
after all quite true
we walked more than we shopped

9pm
having dinner at THE APARTMENT
been there third time
she complained me that every time I go out with me
just fresh for her
just normal for me
because whenever she ask me to try this and that
whether I tried this or that before
and I said Yes
then she will like quiet for a moment
then say haih...
frankly to say that
not many place I been to just that coincidentally what she said I been before
I don't mind going again and again
even I been to the same place

Same place Different people
Different people Different atmosphere

As you said before, don't you remember?

10.30pm
heading home
drove her car back
home-ed at 11.30pm

spending whole day in KLCC
just..just...just...
FUN
even I didn't really buy anything
I still feel fun & enjoy

tonight gonna be a good night

14/10/09

promised to FULL HOUSE one day
so that's the day
Wednesday

as usual I went to work
she also went to work
but tonight I gonna rush back as early I can
to avoid stupid jam
so that I could rush back on time
and follow the plan I planned since morning
OK. It's 6.30pm
time to rush home
must be wondering why I rush home
the plan was like this
I went home prepared then fetch her
then come back to FULL HOUSE
somewhere in ARA DAMANSARA
no idea how to get there
just view some map through online
trying my luck

8.15pm
as usual fetched her from house
almost reach the turn to Ara Damansara
ok then I started to look at signboard
look at the map that I printed
rounded like almost 20mins++
she liked kinda want to give up
asked me can we change plan
I was like almost there just maybe wrong turn
I don't want just give up like that
I asked one of the condominium guard
then make the last turn
finally we made it
not an interesting way
not a easy to get there

Anyway, WE FOUND IT
so there is it...
FULL HOUSE

Last customer again
LOL
but today we back home earlier than usual
gonna working for the next day
basically having fun there
brought my lomo camera too
took lots of photos

GREAT NIGHT